Every time I begin a post, I never really know where to start. My feelings, thoughts and emotions are all over the board. They tell you that the NICU is a roller coaster, they aren't lying. Every time you take 3 steps forward, you take 2 steps back. She is back on high flow oxygen, after she was having a difficult time breathing. But other than that she is doing well. She has become so much more alert and is starting to smile and follow us with her eyes, every time she smiles Brad and I start yelling and snapping pictures, the nurses probably think that we are crazy! I like to think she's going to be such a happy baby, a happy little girl. She is now 2lb 7oz and about 16 inches long. She is starting to look like such a big girl and not so much like a preemie anymore. Every time I walk in to the NICU and they have Abby all dressed up, I want everybody around to come see her and how pretty she looks, so I must share with you too.

I could just eat her up!!!

When my girlfriend Jane's five year old was looking at Abby's pictures with her mom she wanted to know why Abby gets to wear a bra and she doesn't...
I have laughed about this for over a week now and shared this with all the nurses, she thought the monitor leads were a bra.


This week I have vowed to myself to get out and go for a walk at least once a day and to do something I enjoy for a least an hour a day, so given my love for crafting, I'm going to start making headbands and sewing again, making things for Abby, it will give me some time to clear my head and time to do something I enjoy. It's hard to find things preppy and monogrammed for such a small baby, so I'm going to make them. So what for my crafts to come!

The moment a child is born,
the mother is also born.
She never existed before.
The woman existed, but the mother, never.
A mother is something absolutely new.
Rajneesh